Scare And Release!!

Tomorrow, I will throw my resignation letter to my boss. Actually, I am a bit scare. I'm afraid of people perception about me leaving the company. For a record, I'm working as auditor in the company for more than 5 years. I enjoy my work but the working environment become dull and eventually effect my mood to perform well (I guess). Previously, the department is consider livable and people enjoy working there. Good Head Of Department, best working colleagues and fun recreational activities were organised to create better workplace. However, now, the environment seems dull and less attractive. I do not why?

Another good reason why I'm leaving is because my current superior is suck in managing people. His favoritism is obvious and he never appreciate people working under him. I try to understand his need from one assignment to another but it turns to be very difficult. He loves to 'steal' other people opinions and re-word that idea as it comes from him (actually I'm bit piss off with him now!!!). Last time, he never bothered about me and he did not like my work. But now, he has to force himself to love it as there is nobody has the experience to do so (he deserves it). Most of my colleague that leave the company is because of him (I can feel their emotion now!!!).

But then, I feel scared to join to the new company. I'm afraid that the expectation from my future boss is more than my current boss. So what should I do? I think that I need to believe in myself that I can do it and work extra harder to gain trust from my future boss!!!...I feel butterfly now but when I think about the best future, perhaps I should be happy because (I think you can figure it out)!!!